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Friday, September 3, 2010

Blog Dump 7/22/2010-8/20/2010

I've been writing in my MacJournal and forgetting to upload onto here. I guess I'll add a few highlights:

My Mind is All over the place
 July 22, 2010
I feel like I don't have time for anything. I feel like I have a million things to do! I need to make a list but right now I don't have time!
July 23, 2010
Yesterday I took Beasley to the vet and I wish I hadn't! A waste of $20. He has a lump on his side, so the doc looked at it, they weighed him, and he told me to just watch the lump and make sure it doesn't get bigger. :P WASTE.

Last night Billy surprised me and bought the Serah Farron wig! I'm so happy. It was completely unexpected! We were at the cookout last night after the Hurricanes game (which they lost to Cals) and he was on his phone as usual. He asked me what the paypal id/password was so I gave it to him, not even thinking anything about the wig. I thought he was buying something golf-related haha. Well, he puts his phone in his pocket and tells me he bought the wig! Crazy! :) I'm really excited about it.

Today I really need to work on Dana's present! Time is going by so fast. Their anniversary is on August 1.

Jeffrey's graduation is on Saturday. I have no idea what to get him. I guess some $$ haha. That's all a graduate wants anyways! 
July 24, 2010
Jeffrey's graduation was today. At Munden Point Park out in the middle of nowhere. The place was beautiful, right on the water, but the heat was absolutely unbearable. My face was covered in a layer of shiny sweat. My hair looked horrible, and my crappy skin really added to the wonderful look I had going. Every time I went to the bathroom I looked a thousand times worse.

This whole skin problem+bad hair+weight gain is really getting me down. I've never had so many (shallow) physical issues at once. I hate it. I look like crap. I'm only 23 and I already have smile line wrinkles. They are sooo ugly.

So, things I'm doing to help my appearance improve:

● Using Neutrogena On-the-Spot acne cream.
● Using Neutrogena Healthy Skin Anti-wrinkle Anti-blemish face wash.
● Doing Pilates.
● Doing a Self Magazine Butt Busting workout. It's 45 min long and I'm still sore from it!

I really like doing pilates, and I hope I keep it up. I feel so relaxed after I'm done. The session I did today actually made me sweat, though. I was really focusing on trying to do the moves in the most effective way possible.

Well, tomorrow I really need to work since I didn't do any work at all today. That sucks. I'm super behind schedule now.

I'm still excited that my Serah wig is coming in :) I just can't believe it! I've wanted it for so long. Today I borrowed some glue and metallic amethyst paint for the leg attachment. The middle part is pearl color and it's encased in gold. Well, I have metallic silver and purple paint, so I guess I'll mix the silver with yellow and the purple with ehh white?? What color IS pearl exactly?? It's like, white+pink+purple, right?
 July 29, 2010
Today is Thursday and we're leaving for Buffalo in a few hours. We're all meeting at our house. Billy and I are riding up with my parents. We're going up for Grandma & Grandpa's anniversary/family reunion. Yeah what sucks is all I have are some old contacts and a bunch of zits on my face haha Not to mention I've gained weight :P Ohh well. Right now I don't really give a crap because I have my period. Which also kind of sucks because I'm not even supposed to have my period yet. I guess my body hasn't gotten used to the change yet.

The past couple of days Jojo was with us. It was really depressing. He can barely walk, I have to help/carry him up and down the stairs, we have to hand feed him, including when he drinks. He's completely incontinent and has to wear a diaper. He can't hear or see very well. I feel so bad. When Norma came to pick him up this morning she was so angry at her mother. She feels it's inhumane to keep Jojo alive in this condition. His health has declined so much since I've seen him last. It made me want to cry every time I watched him.

Monday morning I met with Sister Franklin at the library to discuss her website. What's funny is she completely forgot about our meeting and had met for service and just happened to come to the library with Carmen to do letter writing! She was so embarrassed. I finished her logo this week and I think it looks awesome. I'm really excited about this.

For the trip I'm going to be working on the face of the hannari tofu pillow I'm making for Dana & Zach's present. I also brought a little mamegoma plushie to work on. I'm glad we're leaving in the daytime so I will actually be able to do something.

Well, it's 11:04AM now. The house is cleaned, our bags are packed, and the dogs are wrestling lol. Billy is supposed to meet Kevin here at 11:30 so I'm sure he'll be home soon.

I'm wearing my glasses right now and I hate it...my eyes look so tiny :( But I just can't stand to wear those contacts for long hours, and there's no way I'm going to wear those horrible things on the trip up there. They are just too old. It feels like little pieces of sandpaper in my eyes when I wear them. When we get back I really need to go to the eye doctor. I'm so embarrassed though that I never went and picked up my contacts from them...I don't even know what to say.
August 1, 2010
We just got home from Buffalo. It's about 8:30pm. I had a really good time; some low moments when Billy and my parents left me to play golf. Actually, everyone left and I was left at Aunt Helga's. Uncle Rick was outside mowing the grass and I was all alone. That was on Friday. Saturday morning the guys went out to play golf again and mom stayed home for me. We ended up sitting on the front porch together; their yard was beautiful and the air was the perfect temperature. We went wine tasting to three different wineries. It was such a pretty day. The dinner party was at 4. I had fun talking with Rachael and Nicole since we're all cosplayers. Need I say more.. They invited me to LA and to Comicon and Anime Expo. That would be really awesome. They both kept saying I should live in CA lol. I was like, yes..i know. Grandma and Grandpa gave us all such a generous present. It really helps a lot. Traveling is really expensive!

Well, my wig was shipped on Friday the 30th and it is now Sunday. It says on the site that shipping can take from 7-30 days. I'm so excited! August 6th will be the seventh day but I won't get my hopes up. I definitely will keep my eye out, because I don't want the wig sitting out in the heat or rain. The 6th is on Friday. Coming all the way from Hong Kong. But wow it was processed by NY this evening at 6pm! That's really fast shipping.
August 16, 2010
Oh wow, a lot has happened in 15 days. We went to Grandma & Grandpa's anniversary up in Buffalo. It was fun.

My skin has gotten so much better. It was actually completely clear a couple days ago, but then I broke out again. But nothing on the scale that it was. Mostly on my chin. I really think the Neutrogena products helped to relieve me of that horrible breakout so fast.

And now I am trying something new. Apple cider vinegar, supposedly helps with many things. Today is day one. I mixed two tablespoons with a cup of Good Earth Sweet & Spicy Black Tea and two tablespoons of honey. It's definitely got a tang to it, but it's not bad at all. I can taste the apple flavoring and it seems very full of spice. I am only going to be drinking this once a day, since apple cider vinegar is, of course, very acidic. But it's supposed to help with stomach problems/digestion, colds, allergies, and other things. I have all of those right now. I have a cold I can't shake, but I'm not sure if it's allergies or not. My stomach has been messed up again for the past couple days. I'll see if it does any good.

I've also really been trying to work out more. I went back to the "Your Best Butt Fast" video by Self magazine. That workout is fun and challenging for me. I am also doing a pilates workout that I like, but isn't that challenging. I still have very little flexibility, though, so that's where it's hard for me.

The wig came in a while ago. It's really nice, took me forever to style it! The only problem is they styled it the opposite way of Serah's hair :( And it's a little thin, but other than that it's pretty and the perfect color. I also have been working on the necklace and have the spiral and orb finished. There is still so much to be done :/ But it's only August so I'm not really going to worry about that. At least the costume itself is done :P Cheater! Though I am reallly happy with the quality. Milanoo.com is definitely on my Fav list.

I'm almost finished with Loretta's website. I just have to write up/edit her mission statement. Mike came over today and brought us dirt/info for his website. I told him two weeks, so the deadline is August 30th, the end of this month. I'm excited to work on websites. It's really fun. I also ordered my business cards; can't wait for those to come in. I hope they turn out ok.

Oh and I have a business checkcard with Wachovia now! I'm excited about that :) It's nice to see "Neutral Ocean Design" on there.

I drove to the eye doctor today to pick up my trial lenses. They feel really good; different brand than I'm used to. They're also HUGE. They look kind of weird because they're so big and visible,  I guess because they're really thick.

Ok, so some effects I notice already from the apple cider vinegar is the feeling in my mouth and throat. This stuff is extremely acidic. I might just try two tablespoons in a huge glass of water instead. I actually got myself a glass of water too cuz it's so intense.
August 17, 2010
It's amazing how much those old contacts were messing with my eyes. I didn't realize how swollen and puffy my eyelids were until now that they're not. I can't even feel these lenses on my eyes and I keep expecting to.

It's also amazing how long it takes me to eat my breakfast. It's 9:00 right now. I got up at 7. And the oatmeal and herb apple cider vinegar tea is still sitting on the table.

It's all due to that stupid super hero game on Facebook. But I need to focus. I need to work on my website. Seriously. Actually, on my business in general. I set up my email account through fatcow so I'm so happy the jaclyn@neutralocean.com email works! Who knows how much I missed out because stupid gmail wasn't letting me receive emails!!!

Yesterday I edited all of the pictures Mike gave me. I picked out the coolest theme ever. Seriously. It's amazing. Possibly too amazing. It's not cheap either, well compared to others on ThemeForest, but the features are off the hook. I sent Mike a long email so hopefully he sends some info back to me this time. I want to have his site up by this weekend.

I also need to workout today. It annoys me so much that for some reason I never work out on Mondays. I want to be working out five times a week and I haven't yet done it. Oh well.

I need to create proposals for design work and web work. Also, the web content worksheet and a general questionnaire. I also need to write up my prices and descriptions. But stop talking about it and just DO IT!!
August 18, 2010
Shoveling porridge down my throat, drinking the acv+herb tea and a cup of water. Unfortunately I've fallen back into constipation for the last week or so. It made me gain two pounds and I'm all crampy and bloaty. Soo annoying.

Beasley has surgery tomorrow to remove his cyst. I took him in yesterday and Dr. Pope said we should have it removed. It looks really gross and has doubled in size in one month. Beasley keeps picking at it and the doc gave him antibiotics because the thing looks infected. Hopefully all goes well.

Man my guts are really annoying me. If I had healthy guts I bet I could easily get back to 100 lbs. I got down to 105 but now because of this I'm back at 107. 23, 107 lbs. I guess it's not that bad. I hate it, though. Actually, it's not the weight. I want to be in better shape. More toned and have a stronger core, which will help with my sciatica and back pain. Unfortunately it's painful for me to workout because my knees are so messed up. Stupid hockey. I'm glad I quit.
August 20, 2010
I picked up poor baby Beas from the vet yesterday. He had surgery to remove a tumor on his right side. He was really out of it yesterday but is doing much better today. I can tell the area is giving him a lot of pain, though. I mean, there are 13 stitches in that thing. It's a big cut.

Well, I think I really need to focus on positives instead of negatives all the time. It's so unhealthy for me! Like, it got me really down yesterday when I went to minor emergency and stood on the scale and it read 108.8 lb. But I shouldn't focus on that. I should focus on the fact that the apple cider vinegar has already started to curb my appetite. That the Neutrogena products have really cleared up my skin so much. 
eye infection?
But this eye thing really does suck. Every time I put my contacts in bright red veins start spreading out from the inner corner of my right eye. It's painful. They gave me two prescription eye drops. One is so thick and gooey; it's disgusting and all over my eyelid. Keeps getting on my glasses. I think I'm going to get an eye patch today so that I can at least wear a contact in my good eye. Plus, I don't want people to get grossed out by my eye haha.

I think tonight we're going to the movies with Keith. The Steins got in town yesterday, so I'm sure we will see them this weekend. It just sucks we can't bring Beasley. I don't really want to leave him for that long.

I really need to start working out five days a week. I missed Monday and Thursday. It's 9:55 right now, and I'm about to force myself to do a challenging kickboxing boot-camp workout lol. I do need to get in shape, though. All of my body has gotten really soft and mushy, especially my "pooch" area. It hangs over all my pants ew! And not to mention all of my pants and shorts are really tight on me now, what the heck.... Such a dramatic change so fast. In one year I've gained about 10 lbs! And I absolutely hate it. I don't know if I could ever be pregnant just because of how much I loathe any weight on me. And just for me to say that I obviously haven't reached the self-sacrificing motherly role yet. I don't know if I ever will.